My new life

Alright. This is yet the third blog that I have started. My first one, I kind of just never wrote on. My 2nd one, was all of 12 blogs and was about my life as a mommy and a wife. Well that last part, is no longer. Or will be no longer anyways. I have been married since April 28, 2009. We have been together since March 10, 2008. We had a baby on February 7, 2009 and he has taken on my oldest daughter as well. We were separated at the end of 2009 due to him lying and us fighting ALLLLL the time! I kicked him out and we were separated for about 3 months or so. He started dating someone right away and was planning on moving in with her. I was sort of dating someone as well. We weren't "official" but we knew we were talking and weren't talking to anyone else. Well towards the end of that 3 months, I freaked out and just HAD to get Chad back. We ended up back together and, so I thought, had been doing better than ever. He seemed happy and I put on a front. But now, looking back, I knew I had been in a depression because I noticed things changing and I didn't WANT to see it at all. So I sat there. Literally. I took care of the kids, him and sort of the apartment but not really. I wasnt' taking care of myself or anything. I was depressed.

August 15, 2011 came and Chad woke up in a HORRIBLE mood. I asked him what was wrong and he said nothing. We had Annabelle's meet and greet at school that day so I just let it go. It was his ONLY day off for over a week, so I wanted it to be a good day. I might add here that he works from 5pm-5am and I had him quit smoking because I HATED it. That's one of the things he always lied about. Smoking. Well I found out before we left that he was doing it again after he told me he quit. I know I know I shouldn't have tried to change him but I didn't bother him with ANYTHING else other than his driving (because of the girls mostly). I let him do whatever he wanted. But I guess that just didn't matter. We got into a HUGE fight when we got home and I told him to leave. I called him and told him to come back but when he did, it wasn't what I wanted at all. He told me that he had been thinking about this for a long time and he didn't want to be with me anymore. He completely crushed me.

The next day, Chad told me that he didn't love me anymore. Out of NOWHERE. Now, mind you, I have texts from him just 4 days before all of that crap that tells me how much he loves me and how much he would miss me that week when he worked allll week. He said he was putting on a front. Well I found out why about 4-5 days later. He had been having an affair with some whore at work. He "claims" he had only been talking to her since the week before he left but he started staying with her the week after he left and moved into an apt with her 2 weeks after he left. And she has a 18 month old daughter. Soooo she just moved in a guy who she's been seeing for a whole 2 weeks in with her daughter?! I really doubt that!!!! UGH! Ok this is pissing me off as I type it, so I'm going to end it now. SO much more has happened since then. I'll write more tomorrow.....