A long time coming.....

So, I haven't written since November 9, 2011. It is now, July 18, 2012. These last 8 months have been some of the hardest I have ever been through. Not only that I have been through, but what my girls have been through too. It's still hard to get used to the "new normal" around here. Every other day, my girls are with their dad. Which is ok, I guess. I love that they spend so much time with him, but I hate....no despise....her. the "whore" as I have named her. Yes, mean, I know. But that's what she is to me. A homewrecking whore. Now, don't get me wrong, I dont' want Chad back...at all. But she treats my kids like crap and he lets her. And right now, I have no choice but to let her be around them. After August 6th though, unless he talks to her and makes her stop, he won't be getting them as much as he is now. They will be home, where they belong. Gosh I sound like a bitter hag:/ Oh well. I love my babies. And will do anything to make sure they're happy again.

I got a job 2 days after my last post on here. I work in a nursing home as a CNA and in the Activities dept as well. Oh and transportation too. I drive the bus to appointments the residents have. Not all of them and not all the time, but sometimes:) I really love it. I'm also starting classes back up, after taking the summer off. The last 2 semesters have REALLY sucked for me. So it's time to step up my game for real now. I have to ace all 3 classes for me to keep my FA and if I don't, these last 2 years would have been for nothing. And I can't let that happen. He took everything else from me. I won't let him take this too.

Personally, I've been sort of a mess. Found a guy that I fell hard and fast for, but he chose someone else because...well because he's an idiot I guess. He has his reasons and I get it, but it still sucks. That's the first time I really put myself out there for a guy and he hurt me. Bad. But it's ok. Someday, I'll find someone who deserves me AND my kiddos:) Until then, I have my girls! They really are the best part of me and I love them to death!!

Alright, I'm going to get to bed and try to sleep. I have no kids and no work tomorrow...hmm should have thought about that earlier. I could have had a drink for once!! LOL! Oh well. My birthday is Monday, so maybe I'll get one soon:)

My girls on 4th of July