Trying to find my way

Well, I ended up not having such a good birthday:/ Annabelle was SO sick, she couldn't even move hardly, because of a migraine. Called her DR office and they told me to get her to the ER immediately. So I did, freaking out of course. Chad was at work, so I called his girlfriend, Samantha (the whore as I still sometimes call her....even though it's been less and less....more on that later) and she came to pick up Peyton for me. She went to get Chad from work and fed miss Peyton too and brought her back and they stayed with both girls so I could go get Annabelle's RX and food for her. Ok, now that I went off track, back to the story. They did a strep test on Annabelle which ended up coming back positive, which is why she had such a migraine. At one point, her HR was up to 141 which REALLY freaked me out. But they said it was from the fever, thank God! So that's how I spent my Birthday:( But it's ok. My babygirl is alright and that's all that matters:)

Ok, so about...her. Things have been better lately. We haven't gotten into it in a while, which I'm sure means it's gonna happen soon. I'm hoping I nipped the problem by switching up work a bit so I can have the girls home with me every day during the week. Besides, school is starting in 3 days (EEEKKKK I have a 4th grader!!) so it'll be better for Annabelle to stay at home for that:) I'm trying to keep my cool about things that I can't control. Like Chad's place. He smokes INSIDE his apt with the girls and they both have asthma so I get PISSED but there's nothing I can do about it. So I'll just keep them here with me, where it's safe for them for the most part lol. But It's KILLING Chad that he goes 5 days without seeing them. And I get it. He's a good dad, other than that part. I feel bad but it's what's for the best.

I started going back to church in July. I've only missed one week due to a wedding and work since I started going back. I love being there. I just hope I can find my way soon. I need to buy a new bible. But they're SO expensive! Guess that's going to have to wait for now!

My fall semester starts on August 20th. I'm excited to get back but nervous too. If I can't seem to pull my GPA up and ace these 3 classes, it's over for me! So I'm going to have to work REALLY  hard to fix what I let Chad destroy. I can do it, I know I can!

I'm hoping to get enough in FA/loans to get a new car. I know mine isn't gonna last too much longer and I kind of NEED a car to get to/from classes and work! Please let my car last until then!

I'm thinking I'm going to take the girls to the pool today. As long as it warms up a bit! Today is the last day I'll have off until next Monday, when I start school back up!